Some thoughts check'em out

Hello Gentlemen,

I have a couple of things I would like to share first an foremost I have found a really neat Flash website that is an online Labyrinth. For those of you who don't know what that is I think you should read a little bit on them and then implement them in your ministry ASAP maybe even as a regular think. They don't have to be complex they can be laid out using tape on a floor or they can be a complex rock garden that guides you through a time of prayer that is very renewing and challenging.

Here is the link for the online one which is a good one and also maybe helpful for ideas if you did one in real life.
http://www.yfc.co.uk/labyrinth/online.html check it out.

The next thing is that as many of you know I travel along the road for days and stay a places talk about missions and do it again. Thus because of that I listen to a whole lot of talk radio, music, and podcasts. I recently heard one coming down to Tennessee from Indiana from Mars Hill Rob Bell's congregation and he had several provoking things to say in this time of Q & A.

The thought I want to leave you all with as we participate in ministry and lead ministries and such is this question. Can the church look beyond its own self-preservation to a world that lives in poverty and despair? Can we be the agents of change and finally in our history be the catalyst of change in the world and not it be Bill Gates or some other wealthy man doing sincere good but let it be the church Christians who say no more will we look to our own interests but those people of God that exist all over the world.

What is our purpose?

I hear what you are saying Kenny. For the past couple of weeks I have had little to do besides finish a few things with CMF and find a job to do the next steps. I felt somewhat disabled from my normal duties and passions with glimmers of light that carried me through that time. But, now i have felt pseudo despair. No, not real despair I still have family, friends, food and transportation but the reality is that I know not what I should be doing. I have always seemed to have a need for purpose in what I do. Even when I was doing jobs that didn't seem to carry me anywhere of significance like the factory or retail they served in funding my education and travels around the world.

Now though after working in marketing where the purpose was almost entirely to help somebody or something look in a way that makes in more appealing so that a status might be reached. Grant it I just unpacked a fundamental concept within a lot of marketing ideals but I just couldn't do it. I also was given opportunity to be creative very often it was a cookie cutter mentality.

Despite that I find myself ending a term with a wonderful organization doing a job that I utterly love. I have been given a great opportunity to connect students and people in general to the part of God's call that is missions. I was hoping to extend that into connecting the opportunity of higher education for students and helping them to cast a vision for their future and how they might plug into the kingdom. Alas something that I thought was a sure thing is now no longer an opportunity but something of the past.

I wish I knew what I am supposed to do. I wish I knew a clear direction like some of you who are minister, students, writers, doctors etc... I wish sometimes that my skills and passions synced in a way that would allow me to simply work and be compensated free of this burden to figure out my purpose in what I do and the burden of doing something purposeful.'

I wish I had enough faith in God at this point not to feel the burden of stress and looming unemployment but to know he has a plan and opportunities in place so that I might eat and live well as he calls us to do.

If you all have suggestions for my life. If you all have encouraging thoughts or ideas feel free to pass them on I could use a few. Most of all though pray for me as I try and figure out where I should be and what I should do.