What is our purpose?

I hear what you are saying Kenny. For the past couple of weeks I have had little to do besides finish a few things with CMF and find a job to do the next steps. I felt somewhat disabled from my normal duties and passions with glimmers of light that carried me through that time. But, now i have felt pseudo despair. No, not real despair I still have family, friends, food and transportation but the reality is that I know not what I should be doing. I have always seemed to have a need for purpose in what I do. Even when I was doing jobs that didn't seem to carry me anywhere of significance like the factory or retail they served in funding my education and travels around the world.

Now though after working in marketing where the purpose was almost entirely to help somebody or something look in a way that makes in more appealing so that a status might be reached. Grant it I just unpacked a fundamental concept within a lot of marketing ideals but I just couldn't do it. I also was given opportunity to be creative very often it was a cookie cutter mentality.

Despite that I find myself ending a term with a wonderful organization doing a job that I utterly love. I have been given a great opportunity to connect students and people in general to the part of God's call that is missions. I was hoping to extend that into connecting the opportunity of higher education for students and helping them to cast a vision for their future and how they might plug into the kingdom. Alas something that I thought was a sure thing is now no longer an opportunity but something of the past.

I wish I knew what I am supposed to do. I wish I knew a clear direction like some of you who are minister, students, writers, doctors etc... I wish sometimes that my skills and passions synced in a way that would allow me to simply work and be compensated free of this burden to figure out my purpose in what I do and the burden of doing something purposeful.'

I wish I had enough faith in God at this point not to feel the burden of stress and looming unemployment but to know he has a plan and opportunities in place so that I might eat and live well as he calls us to do.

If you all have suggestions for my life. If you all have encouraging thoughts or ideas feel free to pass them on I could use a few. Most of all though pray for me as I try and figure out where I should be and what I should do.